Julianne Moore as “Famous Works of Art” by Peter Linderbergh - for Harper’s Bazaar
Seated Woman With Bent Knee by Egon Schiele, La Grande Odalisque by Ingres, Saint Praxidis by Vermeer, The Cripple by John Currin, Les danseuses by Edgar Degas, Madame X by John Singer, Girl with a Pearl Earring by Vermeer, Woman With a Fan by Modigliani, Man Crazy Nurse #3 by Richard Prince, Adele Bloch Bauer I by Gustav Klimt.
My heart wants roots. My mind wants wings. I cannot bear their bickerings.
Don’t hang out with people who don’t love you. Don’t try to impress people who aren’t worth it. Don’t try to win people over who aren’t worth it. Focus on yourself, and focus on the people who are really awesome and who love you. Don’t hang out with people who make you feel like shit. Don’t spend your energy on them. There is so much pressure to be part of the right thing: well, you should create the right thing. If you don’t see it, create it. If you don’t see what you want, be the change you want to see.
Every one gets jealous at times and although I would like to think I am not very insecure, I have been very jealous lately. I hate feeling that way because more often than not my reasons for feeling jealous are unfounded and a waste of energy. So usually I start feeling jealous then hate myself for being so stupid and insecure then dwell more on my jealousy then hate myself again, repeat x2.
While thinking about jealousy I starting thinking about the color green and how it is associated with envy. So why green? I am fascinated by color associations and always try to pick apart their connections. So green usually makes me think of life and growth but in the case of jealousy I think it relates to sickness. Jealousy is a sickness. It washes over you all at once and drains your energy. For me, I feel it in my stomach first. My stomach twists into knots and I feel sick. As it spreads up to my chest and throat I feel anxious. After the physical reaction, my mind starts to shout insults (YOU’RE NOT GOOD ENOUGH! YOU’RE UNINTERESTING! YOU’RE AVERAGE AND UNREMARKABLE! NO WONDER ITS HAPPENING TO THEM AND NOT YOU!)
…I thought that by dissecting the idea of jealousy I would feel better but it really didn’t help much. Its a sickness everyone is susceptible to and I’m not sure how to prevent it. I thought self confidence was a good deterrent but I guess there will always be holes where the green can seep through.
Donald Glover talking about the comments he received during his campaign to be the next Spider-Man (x)“I was talking about it with Dan Eckman, who directed my Bonfire video. Can you imagine that trailer? That would be dope. Like it makes sense… a poor black kid in Queens. Like it just fits.”